Southern California's breeding mommy's little monster

In two days I will be 18. My mother has been bugging me about what I want for my big birthday but I'm honestly not sure. However, I'm pretty excited to be able to do 18-year-old things. Like vote, legally purchase things from the television, play the lottery. Actually, I might end up purchasing a package of cigarettes so I can give them to the homeless people downtown who are always asking for one. I think it'd be nice to make somebody feel a little bit better. I've always believed that people in a situation like that deserve whatever the hell they want to momentarily escape reality. 

Anyway, I've been feeling pretty sleepy about this season, if that makes any sense. Everything has been pretty relaxed and tired. Time has been moving sluggishly, but too quick for recognition. It's strange, really. But here's an outfit for this week. I've been rather obsessed with socks and tights lately. 

 

cardigan- forever 21, shirt- hot topic, shorts- department store, socks- target

 

pins- vintage store, art supply store

shoes- diy

Gosh I guess my writing is also a bit on the sleepy side too. I proofread this post and I sincerely hope I didn't bore you to death.

x 

Hazel

current playlist:

Easy Target- Blink 182

Dick Lips- Blink 182

Mona Lisa Overdrive- Tango in the Attic

And we don't know just where our bones will rest. To dust, I guess.

Hello!

Gosh how I've missed you all.

Life can do some really strange things. 

However, it hasn't all been too bad. I've come to know my first love in the time I've been gone. I've only dated one other person in my life. And I'm not sure I would call it dating. It was more like a "well I think you're kind of cool so let's kind of date or something" high school relationship. We never even surpassed the occasional hug. But anyway, my boyfriend has certainly been my first for nearly everything as far as relationships go. It's exciting and new and wonderful.

Anyway, 

I haven't really kept up with the latest style trends. I've been much too engulfed in work, school, and my relationship. But I have been getting overwhelming 70's vibes. Which really goes nicely with fall weather- with all of the warm colors and whatnot. October is my favorite month of the year. Actually, it's the month of my birthday. 

Jacket- Empyre, Sweater- Forever 21, Shorts- Aerie, Tights- Target, Shoes- Pierre Hardy x Gap

Also- I'm turning 18 on October 8th! It's somewhat difficult to believe sometimes. I remember starting this blog when I was just 16. I'd hate to get all reflect-y on you, but it's so interesting to think about what my life was like when I first started posting. When I first started posting, it was really the beginning of the end.

 I've battled depression and anxiety since the 2nd grade, being prescribed Prozac at age 8. When I originally began posting, I turned to stealing Valium, alcohol, food restriction, and self harm. Sometimes, it's hard to believe. And I think I did a pretty good job of hiding that. Fashion was my distraction. And my blog was a reflection of that. Regardless, it's all behind me now. And it probably explains my lack of posting. I no longer need that distraction to function. I. Am. Free. Of course, I occasionally relapse into that all-too-familiar sickly depressed feeling, but I've survived it. And I'm glad to still have a family of bloggers to return to. 

Thanks. 

x

Hazel

current playlist:

1979- Smashing Pumpkins

Mayonaise- Smashing Pumpkins

Colours- Grouplove

Lies- KoRn