Wednesday, October 3, 2012

And we don't know just where our bones will rest. To dust, I guess.


Gosh how I've missed you all.

Life can do some really strange things. 

However, it hasn't all been too bad. I've come to know my first love in the time I've been gone. I've only dated one other person in my life. And I'm not sure I would call it dating. It was more like a "well I think you're kind of cool so let's kind of date or something" high school relationship. We never even surpassed the occasional hug. But anyway, my boyfriend has certainly been my first for nearly everything as far as relationships go. It's exciting and new and wonderful.

I haven't really kept up with the latest style trends. I've been much too engulfed in work, school, and my relationship. But I have been getting overwhelming 70's vibes. Which really goes nicely with fall weather- with all of the warm colors and whatnot. October is my favorite month of the year. Actually, it's the month of my birthday. 

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Jacket- Empyre, Sweater- Forever 21, Shorts- Aerie, Tights- Target, Shoes- Pierre Hardy x Gap

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Also- I'm turning 18 on October 8th! It's somewhat difficult to believe sometimes. I remember starting this blog when I was just 16. I'd hate to get all reflect-y on you, but it's so interesting to think about what my life was like when I first started posting. When I first started posting, it was really the beginning of the end.

 I've battled depression and anxiety since the 2nd grade, being prescribed Prozac at age 8. When I originally began posting, I turned to stealing Valium, alcohol, food restriction, and self harm. Sometimes, it's hard to believe. And I think I did a pretty good job of hiding that. Fashion was my distraction. And my blog was a reflection of that. Regardless, it's all behind me now. And it probably explains my lack of posting. I no longer need that distraction to function. I. Am. Free. Of course, I occasionally relapse into that all-too-familiar sickly depressed feeling, but I've survived it. And I'm glad to still have a family of bloggers to return to. 



current playlist:
1979- Smashing Pumpkins
Mayonaise- Smashing Pumpkins
Colours- Grouplove
Lies- KoRn


  1. It's really great that you're doing so much better. I've dealt with some of the same shit so I might know a little bit where you're coming from; of course what you experience is all unique to you. But I do hope you find yourself updating here some. I love your posts!

  2. I love those shoes, especially with the black tights. Also, those are all great songs.

    <3 Melissa

  3. welcome back.
    so powerful.
    a great thing for everyone to adopt as a mantra.