Southern California's breeding mommy's little monster

In two days I will be 18. My mother has been bugging me about what I want for my big birthday but I'm honestly not sure. However, I'm pretty excited to be able to do 18-year-old things. Like vote, legally purchase things from the television, play the lottery. Actually, I might end up purchasing a package of cigarettes so I can give them to the homeless people downtown who are always asking for one. I think it'd be nice to make somebody feel a little bit better. I've always believed that people in a situation like that deserve whatever the hell they want to momentarily escape reality. 

Anyway, I've been feeling pretty sleepy about this season, if that makes any sense. Everything has been pretty relaxed and tired. Time has been moving sluggishly, but too quick for recognition. It's strange, really. But here's an outfit for this week. I've been rather obsessed with socks and tights lately. 

 

cardigan- forever 21, shirt- hot topic, shorts- department store, socks- target

 

pins- vintage store, art supply store

shoes- diy

Gosh I guess my writing is also a bit on the sleepy side too. I proofread this post and I sincerely hope I didn't bore you to death.

x 

Hazel

current playlist:

Easy Target- Blink 182

Dick Lips- Blink 182

Mona Lisa Overdrive- Tango in the Attic

And we don't know just where our bones will rest. To dust, I guess.

Hello!

Gosh how I've missed you all.

Life can do some really strange things. 

However, it hasn't all been too bad. I've come to know my first love in the time I've been gone. I've only dated one other person in my life. And I'm not sure I would call it dating. It was more like a "well I think you're kind of cool so let's kind of date or something" high school relationship. We never even surpassed the occasional hug. But anyway, my boyfriend has certainly been my first for nearly everything as far as relationships go. It's exciting and new and wonderful.

Anyway, 

I haven't really kept up with the latest style trends. I've been much too engulfed in work, school, and my relationship. But I have been getting overwhelming 70's vibes. Which really goes nicely with fall weather- with all of the warm colors and whatnot. October is my favorite month of the year. Actually, it's the month of my birthday. 

Jacket- Empyre, Sweater- Forever 21, Shorts- Aerie, Tights- Target, Shoes- Pierre Hardy x Gap

Also- I'm turning 18 on October 8th! It's somewhat difficult to believe sometimes. I remember starting this blog when I was just 16. I'd hate to get all reflect-y on you, but it's so interesting to think about what my life was like when I first started posting. When I first started posting, it was really the beginning of the end.

 I've battled depression and anxiety since the 2nd grade, being prescribed Prozac at age 8. When I originally began posting, I turned to stealing Valium, alcohol, food restriction, and self harm. Sometimes, it's hard to believe. And I think I did a pretty good job of hiding that. Fashion was my distraction. And my blog was a reflection of that. Regardless, it's all behind me now. And it probably explains my lack of posting. I no longer need that distraction to function. I. Am. Free. Of course, I occasionally relapse into that all-too-familiar sickly depressed feeling, but I've survived it. And I'm glad to still have a family of bloggers to return to. 

Thanks. 

x

Hazel

current playlist:

1979- Smashing Pumpkins

Mayonaise- Smashing Pumpkins

Colours- Grouplove

Lies- KoRn

Tidal waves, they rip right through me. Tears from eyes, worn cold and sad.

If you haven't already noticed, I'm giving my blog a much-needed makeover! I was inspired by the lovely Claire of snuggllepuff.blogspot.com (two Ls!!) and her own spacey background. I'm trying to play around with photos too- today I've got some really round ones. *u* And they're not as horrible as my last post. I promise not to post anything that grainy ever again.

[EDIT: I just deleted that post! I'm too picky about my image quality.]

International Concepts top, old dress used as skirt

And these were the shoes I wore with this outfit-I made these shoes quite a while ago! 'Just took 'em, spray painted them, and brushed on a skeletal pattern. I probably wear these the most out of all of my shoes.

There aren't many things I love about the state I live in. But I really love the weather. I mean, a tank top and skirt in the winter? Coolest thing ever. Super simple and super sweet. <3

x

Hazel

Current playlist:

Adam's Song- Blink-182

I was born a unicorn

Geez. I really can't get enough of these skeleton tights. This would make the third outfit post in a row with those damn tights. I don't know, they just kind of go with everything I wear. That, and I really love skeletons/skulls. As an artist, pencil studies of skeletons/skulls are amazing practice- I've learned so much about anatomy.

Anyway, I can't wait until next Halloween because they're actually starting to get shredded in the back. Now I know to stock up! I might actually have to do a contest to win a pair one day.

shirt- thrift, skirt- thrift, tights- walmart, shoes- pierre hardy x gap, bag- gift

The picture is pretty shitty, but the shirt is so ugly <3 I love it!

And check out these glow-in-the-dark skeleton earrings I snagged at claire's around Halloween!

I'd also like to give a little shout-out to the lovely Lydia and George for helping me figure out how to format my blog images! I'm super grateful.

x

Hazel

Current playlist:

Geraldine- Glasvegas

I go for a swim but I don't get wet

I really need to save up for a nice digital camera. ( +_+) I had to use my cell phone this time, so some of my main photos are a little blurry. It's weird, though. Some of the pictures turned out REALLY nice while the others turned out relatively poor. I tried to make up for it with close-ups, but I'm hoping to get a new camera soon, so I won't have to deal with that anymore.

Also~ for all of you shmancy bloggers out there, how do I get rid of the pesky size restriction on my photos? Every time I upload them, they get all small and shrinky and the details get hard to see. I'd really appreciate the help!

So blurry. ):

Sweater- christmas gift (American Eagle?), random dress worn as skirt, skeleton tights- Walmart, shoes- Converse

If you look behind me, you can see one of my cats!

Nope. I will probably never get tired of these tights.

Also~ check my lovely Descendents patch!! Greatest Christmas presents ever? I think so. I have the greatest best friend ever. *u* Now I just have to figure out where to put all of these snazzy patches...

You can get some patches like these for yourself from lavendertrap on etsy.

I don't think I've ever uploaded a picture of my red bangs yet! I did them some time in September, I think.

x

Hazel

Current playlist:

Tuff Ghost- The Unicorns

And all these demons, they keep me up all night

The new Blink-182 album is AMAZING. omg.

It's October! And you know what that means- Halloween! In other words, large supermarkets around the nation are stockpiling cheaply-made costumes to monetize the national holiday. Which ALSO means, awesome stockings for only three bucks! Good lord. I just love Halloween, don't you?

Anyway, I was fortunate enough to get compliments over nasty stares with this outfit. It seems that skeleton stockings are quite the ice breaker. In my opinion, they're the most lovely things I've ever seen. So it's nice to share the same opinion with so many other people.

Dress- Alice Temperley x Target, Skirt- random, Tights- Walmart, Shoes- Pierre Hardy x Gap, Unicorn necklace- Forever 21

I absolutely adore how these shoes sort of go along with the skeletal pattern on the tights.

HEY CHECK OUT THIS DEER I MADE IN SCULPTURE TODAY.

Probably one of my favorite outfits.

x

Hazel

P.s. Did you know that my dad named his cat after Mazzy Star? Just a bit of random, but totally awesome information for you.

Current playlist:

Up All Night- Blink-182

People moving sideways

SO MUCH RIDICULOUSNESS, SO LITTLE TIME.

Let me just say that My Chemical Romance is possibly the greatest band to ever live ever. They are endlessly inspiring and amazing and absolutely perfect in every way and I'm still in la la land after seeing them in concert on saturday. Also Blink-182. They were visually stunning on stage. Travis Barker was a beast and Mark Hoppus was an absolute clown. Oh- and Tom Delonge? He might just be my new hero.

Anyway,

Onward with ridiculousness!

My hips sway better than Mark Hoppus.

PROOF.

Tiara- Dollar Tree, Shirt- Thrifted, Shorts-Dollhouse, Socks- Journeys, Bullet belt- costume store, Boots- Nomi, Unicorn Necklace- Forever 21

This outfit is more so a product of my scattered brain over a product of my creative genius. I'm still high on post-concert buzz, so I'm really not quite sure what I'm doing at the moment.

Take this for example. Right after the My Chem set, I even confused the guy at the concession stand when I tried to order french fries. I started babbling some nonsense and throwing money in his direction. I will be forever grateful for the friends who cleared everything up for me and the concession man.

x

Hazel

Current playlist:

Our Lady of Sorrows- My Chemical Romance

Call me up before you're dead. We can make some plans instead.

I'm really starting to miss my camera. CAMERA Y U NO COME BACK 2 ME?

So have any of you ever seen that movie, Girl Interrupted? If you haven't, I recommend that you do asap. I mean, COME ON. Winona Ryder is a total babe. I mean, if you're totally into that borderline personality disorder thing. And mental institutions. But you'll just have to see that for yourself.

I was totally in to the style that the patients had going on. The whole 60s vibe really had my mind going places.

jacket- Gap, skirt- hand-me-down, shoes- under my bed

I love this jacket to PIECES. I was so so so fortunate to get them on sale that one year.

Ta-da! Not much for tonight, folks. But I assure you that it will eventually be made up later with concert pictures and various other things that have nothing to do with this blog.

x

Hazel

Current Playlist:

Loose Lips- Kimya Dawson

It's Not a Fashion Statement, It's a Fucking Death Wish- My Chemical Romance

Hang 'Em High- My Chemical Romance

Cool to be you

Good news- I've finally figured out this damn webcam and put a self timer on it. So no more awkward crouching!

Anywho, I've been doing a lot of thinking lately, which is really quite unusual for me. You know, about this whole adulthood thing? It's only days before I'm 17- just one year away from pure, legitimate, ADULTHOOD. And I've just been reflecting on my life thus far.

It's kind of weird, in a way. I feel like I've developed both mentally and creatively, yet I feel like I've regressed in the same sense. I mean, I've lost that sort of creative freedom that I had in middle school, for example, like all of the times that I would throw random shit together and call it an outfit. It was so great and fun. But now I've redefined the way that I look at myself. In a way, it's confusing. And I'm not quite sure what to think of it. But it's an adventure in itself and I can't wait to dive right into it.

So here's an outfit that reflects that old non-caring way of my childhood self.

Shirt- Gap, inside out skirt- I don't remember, socks- Little Miss Matched, Shoes- somewhere underneath my bed, Unicorn necklace- Forever 21

Guys, this necklace is my pride and joy.

It's funny finding all of my old mismatching knee-highs. I'm pretty sure that I started a sock collection in middle school at one point. And I don't even particularly enjoy wearing socks.

x

Hazel

Current playlist:

anything by Guttermouth

Everything Sux

I just lost my camera, so I've had to resort to the dreaded webcam outfit photos. It's a shame because I was really happy with this outfit in particular, but whatevs dude. Some people don't even have webcams to take pics in the first place. Bee tee dubs- did you see that Medham Kerchhoff collection? TO DIE FOR. I feel that it deserves a whole post for itself in the near future...

Anyway, I'm totes into that whole punk vibe thing. The thrashy, angsty music that turns kids against their parents, you know? In a sense, it's that sort of underground revolution that really attracts me to the music and style. While I'm still pretty new to the whole music scene, I'm pretty much here to stay. Anyway~

Yes, that's a unicorn necklace (This one's for you, Mikey Way.)

Descendents shirt- Hot Topic, Dollhouse shorts, DIY shredded fishnets, inside-out Betsey Johnson socks, Nomi Boots,

Forever 21 unicorn necklace

Okay, okay. It is hypocritical to to buy a "punk" shirt from Hot Topic. But it's the fucking Descendents

that we're talking about here. Speaking of which, they're playing in Chicago on my birthday and Chicago

is like dshajgktyr8i75ty5rysedf miles away from me and everything sucks just like that one Descendents

album title. SENSITIVE TEENAGE GIRL PROBLEMS.

x

Hazel