And we don't know just where our bones will rest. To dust, I guess.

Hello!

Gosh how I've missed you all.

Life can do some really strange things. 

However, it hasn't all been too bad. I've come to know my first love in the time I've been gone. I've only dated one other person in my life. And I'm not sure I would call it dating. It was more like a "well I think you're kind of cool so let's kind of date or something" high school relationship. We never even surpassed the occasional hug. But anyway, my boyfriend has certainly been my first for nearly everything as far as relationships go. It's exciting and new and wonderful.

Anyway, 

I haven't really kept up with the latest style trends. I've been much too engulfed in work, school, and my relationship. But I have been getting overwhelming 70's vibes. Which really goes nicely with fall weather- with all of the warm colors and whatnot. October is my favorite month of the year. Actually, it's the month of my birthday. 

Jacket- Empyre, Sweater- Forever 21, Shorts- Aerie, Tights- Target, Shoes- Pierre Hardy x Gap

Also- I'm turning 18 on October 8th! It's somewhat difficult to believe sometimes. I remember starting this blog when I was just 16. I'd hate to get all reflect-y on you, but it's so interesting to think about what my life was like when I first started posting. When I first started posting, it was really the beginning of the end.

 I've battled depression and anxiety since the 2nd grade, being prescribed Prozac at age 8. When I originally began posting, I turned to stealing Valium, alcohol, food restriction, and self harm. Sometimes, it's hard to believe. And I think I did a pretty good job of hiding that. Fashion was my distraction. And my blog was a reflection of that. Regardless, it's all behind me now. And it probably explains my lack of posting. I no longer need that distraction to function. I. Am. Free. Of course, I occasionally relapse into that all-too-familiar sickly depressed feeling, but I've survived it. And I'm glad to still have a family of bloggers to return to. 

Thanks. 

x

Hazel

current playlist:

1979- Smashing Pumpkins

Mayonaise- Smashing Pumpkins

Colours- Grouplove

Lies- KoRn

Cool to be you

Good news- I've finally figured out this damn webcam and put a self timer on it. So no more awkward crouching!

Anywho, I've been doing a lot of thinking lately, which is really quite unusual for me. You know, about this whole adulthood thing? It's only days before I'm 17- just one year away from pure, legitimate, ADULTHOOD. And I've just been reflecting on my life thus far.

It's kind of weird, in a way. I feel like I've developed both mentally and creatively, yet I feel like I've regressed in the same sense. I mean, I've lost that sort of creative freedom that I had in middle school, for example, like all of the times that I would throw random shit together and call it an outfit. It was so great and fun. But now I've redefined the way that I look at myself. In a way, it's confusing. And I'm not quite sure what to think of it. But it's an adventure in itself and I can't wait to dive right into it.

So here's an outfit that reflects that old non-caring way of my childhood self.

Shirt- Gap, inside out skirt- I don't remember, socks- Little Miss Matched, Shoes- somewhere underneath my bed, Unicorn necklace- Forever 21

Guys, this necklace is my pride and joy.

It's funny finding all of my old mismatching knee-highs. I'm pretty sure that I started a sock collection in middle school at one point. And I don't even particularly enjoy wearing socks.

x

Hazel

Current playlist:

anything by Guttermouth

Get a job, hippie slackers

Floral dresses and socks with platforms. Totally not stereotypical fashion blog garb. But the pinky flowers all over the dress is so cute, I don't even care. And dem shoes. I don't think you understand how hard I fought to get those.

floral dress I got at TJ Maxx, Pierre Hardy x Gap 3 strap platforms, white socks, rock necklace I made, quarter machine necklace

Basically a rock tied on to a leather cord.

Ignore that time stamp, too.

Pretty summer vibes, no?

x

Hazel

Wise words featured in title courtesy of Frank Iero's twitter.